Something about change

 Knowing change is coming is one thing acting on that instinct;  a daunting task. 

When we start something, we question our capacity to handle, master and thrive in this new reality. 

We doubt ourselves at every new turn. 

Change is scary, the distance between what we know; leaving behind and what we are yet to experience; speculating feels colossal, worlds apart. The vacuum creating a melting pot of anxieties and fears. 

The prospect of change in a pandemic feels particularly daunting, you know it needs to happen but don't trust yourself enough to leap. Resisting change causes a crescendo of tension declining to destruction. 

Yielding to the unknown turns a caterpillar into a butterfly, a seed into a rose bush and you into the best version of you. Under the right conditions in nature, change is occurring, without resistance. Trees lose their leaves and do not wallow in their loss, they revel at the arrival of the new leaves. 

Unlike the tree, you can create the conditions that allow you to blossom, your greatness unfolding and stretching like a sunflower to the sun. 

All you have to do is show up, take responsibility, be accountable, love yourself as if your life depended on it, show yourself grace no jones. I mean you could show your self Grace Jones coz she is awesome I would encourage you to start here Pull up to The Bumper. 

Each new day an opportunity to be curious and discover the new, remember no one has done this before, any part; being you, in a pandemic while being a slave to capitalism and the grind that says that you canny rest and must remain productive. 

The right conditions are within you, nourish and pour into yourself and watch how beautifully you blossom.

The Hanged One

 A calm and serene hallowed figured is suspended upside down on a tree branch, hands behind back and one foot loosely hanging. This suspension feels deliberate, self-imposed. 

Excercise your divine right to choice and choose a different perspective,  open yourself to the new insight and awareness; in this awareness surrender is a walk in the park. 

Once unhelpful thoughts and behavioural patterns are released an invitation to embrace the opportunities that arise from this change of mind are yours for the taking. 

A call to pause, reflect and rest, when in alignment these signs are aplenty, when unheeded can result in ill health breakdowns etc. Do not keep pushing when the call is heard, surrender and welcome these periods. Something is unfolding within you to prepare you for what is next, resisting will result in more obstacles on your path. 

Shift your routine and your energy will follow, accept and allow yourself to flow with life. 

The pause may feel sacrificial but is essential and will not be wasted, use this time to change your relationship with waiting, doing is not always the best course of action. Waiting can bring much more. 

Waiting does not have to be a passive act. 

I open myself up to omnipresence of love as it flows through around and in me. 

I acknowledge, celebrate walk in my wholeness for I am complete, even on days I may not feel enough 

I use innovation to overcome restriction.  

Eilat Stone aka Stone of King Solomon - Bring forth the wisdom and good judgement to decision making from within. Imaginative resolution and enhance creativity. Stimulate loving feelings. 

Listen to Little Dragon - New Me Same Us. 

The Fool

The sun shines big and bright in the sky as the backpack toting figure clad in flowers, dress and hair dances on the edge of a cliff oblivious to the drop, a loyal companion in the shape of a dog yelps, to warn our fool of the impending drop. 

The fool resides in pure potentiality, looking up and out to the universe and the unknown. You have the wisdom to throw all you trust into the never absent Presence, your journey is just starting, you must be willing to take the first step into the unknown abyss, intuition is guiding, God supports you.

Curiosity, open-mindedness and a sense of excitement are the key ingredients for the adventure that awaits you if you commit to leaving behind fear, anxiety and worry.  

No time is better than the present, the now. All you need you have within you to begin, the creative process of turning inspiration into something tangible can start now. Embrace your inner child and allow for love to flow through you in play, dance and laughter, your heart wants to be free, joy is Godly.

Each new day is an adventure waiting to be had. Opportunity is aplenty. Potentiality can led to untold unimaginable greatness. 

I will meditate and be peaceful and calm in my interactions with others and with the world. Peacefulness comes in me giving up the love of power for the power of love. I invite peace to be a part of my life and I make time to experience my inner stillness daily. I continually develop an inner sense of calm and I trust that everything will be right. Feeling good about myself will help bring peace into my life. 

Anatase - Self-confidence, positive outlook and action. Insight for better mental clarity and a decisiveness that allows one to take control and responsibility of one's life. 

Listen to RIKKI ILILONGA ‎– SOWETO.

The Emperor

A masculine stern-faced figure sits crossed-legged on a large stone throne, adorned with ram horns. The background a concrete skyline as they clutch an ankh. Clouds form yet they remain unperturbed, instead focused. Dressed in red, the Emperor oozes dominance and power.

Your vision is becoming clear as your faith deepens and intuition strengthens. The Emperor shows up to move from ideation into action, by bringing in the structure, security and masculine energy to birth into the physical realm. It reminds us that careful planning, perseverance and an organised approach is necessary when we have visions. 

The use of the innovation and creativity will help overcome any perceived restrictions and limitations to any problems you may encounter. 

This card represents power, strength and success gained and solidified over time, consistency, fairness and humility has earned you the loyalty and trust of many. Conflict does not worry you, you listen to the advice of others. Still, trust yourself enough to make the final call. 

Bound by rules, regulations, law and order, integrity governs your experience. Out of chaos, you create order by breaking problems to their smallest most manageable actional chunks. Stick to your plan until the very end, if anyone can do it is you. 

Servitude is your nature, be fair, be disciplined and follow your intuition. Be methodical in your approach and this world is yours for the taking. 

I communicate openly honestly to express my thoughts and feelings clearly. I share my inner knowledge freely with integrity and without fear. 

I am open to giving and receiving praise and I will be careful not to talk excessively and make it all about me! I create space in my conversations for others to communicate with me. 

I enquire about other’s thoughts and feelings. 

Crystal - Thomsonite - Stabiliser. Lifts brain fog and allow the brain to work at full capacity, you can see what is happening and how to solve it. Encourages growth and removes toxins and blockages dissolves laziness. 

Listen to Black Sabbath - Paranoid. 

Wheel of fortune

The fates are on your side, the ever-turning wheel is showing good times are ahead. Jump on opportunities that present themselves, divinely orchestrated projects are developing an unexpected encounter is Godsend, this will put you on the path to success. Prosperity may come through others but it is not from them, God has many ways of gifting us these successes and these may be presented through people, these people can not and will not stand in the way of what is yours coming your way. 

The enthusiasm and abundant energy bubbling within you will draw all sorts of fortune into your orbit. Do not let impatience upset this turn, put pen to paper whether it is that business idea you had or the novel you have been putting off, this could be the start of something special for you. 

When your crew wins you win and vice versa. Blow your own trumpet; get yourself noticed. No one can pull the wool over your eyes, now is the time to pursue new ventures. Do not let life pass you by, seize the good fortune and you will get to the top, whatever you want that to look like. Get in touch with your intuition. 

I plant myself on solid ground by consistently taking responsibility and having personal accountability for all that I do.

My actions speak louder than words.

I rise above excess and overindulgences. I know I am worthy and deserve to receive good things in life. It is time to enjoy the fruits of my labours.

I am receptive to embracing activities and events that come my way, even those I may have avoided in the past. 

Fluorite - Spiritual elevation and manifestation.

Listen to Simmy - Tugela Fairy 

The Hierophant

 A stern figure sits between two pillars, her right hand and fingers raised in a blessing gesture, in her left is a diamond-encrusted wand. Before her lies two keys and two figures listening attentively. Her crown appears to be three-tiered with the top tier flowing with beautiful flowers. 

The Hierophant is here to impart with spiritual wisdom and knowledge, the keys can open life’s greatest mysteries. The card reminds us the preexisting spiritual structures give us a steady foundation while we explore and discover our own. When the student is ready the teacher shall appear, there is plenty you can learn from spiritual leaders of various faiths and belief systems. 

Spiritual leaders can come in all shapes and formats, books, to youtube and any spaces that nourish, nurture your spiritual curiosity and have an understanding of the core guiding principles. 

Explore your spiritual and cultural heritage, these structures have stood the test of time and will give something to learn about longevity. In the learning be vulnerable and honest, your light will shine and your tribe will find you and you them. seek out your tribe, be vulnerable and honest

Add ritual into your spiritual practice, this could look like daily meditation, gratitude and prayer and journaling. 

 In health seek out professional advice and follow it with adaption.

I will know what I need to do and how to respond with wisdom to situations that come my way. 

I believe in myself.

Carnelian - Build confidence and courage 

Listen to WILLOW, Jahnavi Harrison - R I S E 

That's how I feel

 I feel tender and raw 

'I am fine I promise'

I shout repeatedly to no one in particular 

The gnashing teeth and fatigue tell me otherwise 

My bones and joints feel like rusty old door hinges 

'Yer, yer I will rest' 

I reassure myself as the clock chimes 3; the ungodly hour 

Tender to the touch, red and exposed

Everything hurts in a way that tells me I am feeling too much, none of the good things

'It's not that' I feel my essence scream as I look for irrationality and holes

in what was arising

'Do some things exist where intellect has no jurisdiction?' 

Is this a feeling that needs to be felt before it is articulated

Is the articulation the language to communicate, for another to understand before I overstand it?