The Star

 A naked figure clasping two jars(intuition, spirit) and (material, earth)  knees by a pond, one foot is firmly on the ground while the other is in the water as she pours from the jars into the land and the water. 

She pours into her spirituality and into her physical abilities, by doing this while in alignment she nourished her surrounding and completes the circle of life. She knows all is well. and has hope for the future.

Embrace all the future has to hold, the tough times are behind you and behold here you stand in your fullness. You are inspired, do not shy away from your vulnerability and your truth, your tribe will find you only if you are true to you. Trust in the process. 

I encourage myself to express my sensuality and emotions creatively using all my facilities including touch, voice, actions and creative abilities.

I practise being awarej= of and enjoying my senses being nourished and stimulated by the natural world.

/Gemstone - Orange Moonstone - relatively inspiring and brings freedom of expression. It’s a fertility talisman, bringing gentleness and emotional stability to the fore. 

Listen to - Men I trust - Headroom 

Justice

 A figure sits between two pillars and in front of a veil, the pillars; a signifier for the foundations and support in our lives, our laws, value systems and social responsibilities. In her right hand is an upright double-edged sword, the element of air and the unseen intellect, the action and consequence.  In her left hand is a scale, she is intuitive and balances her heart and head, truth and fairness.

Justice asks, are you behaving in a way that speaks life into situations and people? Is your behaviour causing pain? 

It offers empathy and leaves room for us to change our behaviour to actions aligned with the divine goodness, and warms us that our actions will be judged, fairly, our life is our responsibility. 

It shows up when big decisions have to be made, or attention paid to a particular aspect of your life this has long terms ramifications. Pray for wisdom, for patience for the ability to see truth even when what you say maybe be what you want to see. Pray for the courage to accept this and for acceptance. 

Justice stands in integrity with strength and balance. Even when the truth may not appear so clear cut. 

I embrace courage, faith and adaptability, as they are needed for me to overcome my fear of change or the future. 

I regularly remind myself to be positive and open to possibilities, knowing that I am the creator of my destiny. 

I embrace the warrior within me, remind myself to be a warrior, not a worrier. I am not a victim. 

I feel the fear and do it anyway. I am ready and eager to move forwards. 

Emerald - mercy, compassion and universal love. This stone promotes physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual balance. 

Listen to Raveena - Lucid

 
Numerology - 11 Balance 

Mycelium

Did you know that babies have periods of no growth and then sudden bursts in development? So why do we then berate ourselves when we do not see something instantly recognisable as growth?

I have come to terms with the fact that this journey is going to be fucking uncomfortable, I stumble into dark rooms with huge do not enter signs and growls from now caged once freed beasts.

I learnt to find comfort in being misunderstood, the underlying basis to most of the interactions I had and came to accept it in due time as the way life was. Being misunderstood was an intrinsic part of the human experience. Noone walked a mile in your shoe, the levels of being understood are quite subjective. 

The illusion of loneliness is what bugs me, like most people I enjoy time alone. I am content and happy in my own company and can easily ghost without realisation. The minute another person or other people are thrown into the mix, I feel more so like an island than the peninsula - big up Andre 3000 -  that I am. 

I know for the most part this separation is ego's narrative and it will find all the necessary clues to support this theory. But I do not want to be some bitter spinster who is unable to keep company and never learns how to get on with people. 

Why do I feel so detached from others? Are we all doomed to feel a permanent and perpetual deep loneliness? 

I am fully aware of my interconnectedness to ancestors, family, community, friends, and even strangers.  I am aware of the love it took to get me here, to keep me here and to move me forward. 

What I knew then was how to shrink myself to make other's feel comfortable that I never fully unravelled myself in the presence of others.

Is it's the fact that I hear the unsaid loud and clear, having to navigate the two states feels like being a twin and having to play both roles. It's tiring. 

Could it be my contentment with being misunderstood and the comfort in aloneness that has played a factor in this? Could it be the lockdown trying and finding an issue to latch on to pass time? 

Am I communicating this disconnect with others? If I communicate this to them what do I want out of this situation? What is my responsibility and what isn't? Are our lives doomed to feel the hollowness of loneliness? Does being understood feel like being seen for the first time, is it an addictive feeling, do you forget the first time, the last time and how it felt when it passes?

How much wood could a woodchuck chuck? 

As real as it feels, I must trust the knowledge of oneness, and the role in which I am playing in this, in order to comprehend the illusion. 

Maybe I just need a cuddle and a brew. 

P.s - Lemme get morbid, what if this slow detachment is how you know death is calling, surely it must have its own calling card. I am convinced you know you will die before you die, surely, maybe those intuitive souls. If you know you are going to die, where do you go to hide? Do you allow it to happen or would you instinctively true to dodge it? It is funny we are born to die and we have to rediscover our purpose and add meaning to our lives before our timer goes off.  I don't want to die but I am okay with it happening when it happens as if I can not be okay with it. Just postpone it to a more convenient time. K

Suit of Wands

 The Suit of wands is represented with fire and masculine energy. It is spirituality, determination and willpower. Like fire, it can be unpredictable and creative or energetic and destructive. It is passion and sexuality. 

Wands reminds us that passion is aplenty, it tells us to not get distracted once we have an idea that has come to mind, to start where we are. It reminds us of the conviction we have of our dreams and encourages us to look ahead as the plan of execution begins to become clearer. Gratitude for our current present situations no matter the state. It reminds us that communication is the key to conflict resolution. As you feel more confident and self reassured in yourself, it reminds us that success is ours and the power of our personal sauce when facing obstacles. It reminds us that we have the space and freedom to go where our heart sings and to go there with speed, although battles may arise it reassures us that we do not ever fight alone, even when it might not feel as such. When you are overwhelmed ask for help and support, you do not have to do this thing alone. 

Be curious let that which catches your eye lead you. What lights your passion should be explored. Be courageous enough to be determined to see your vision come to life. Move through obstacles with ease, once you are able to do that you will be able to bring forth with the easiest of ease your visions into reality. 

Orange Selenite - Insight, security and self-identity. 

Listen to Dorothy Ashby - Hip Harp.