Do your forefather's demons chase you?

Father's love was a blueprint, 

I yearn to surround myself with love 

I want my surroundings to fuel me.  

I know that all I need is within me.  

Love void of conditions feels like freedom.

My love self love is sufficient.

No tree grew tall by itself.  

Tiffany Gouche

At first I thought 'garddamn if this isn't a bitter song I don't know what could be.'

Then I revelled in the honesty and vulnerability of the song the longer it played.

'Baby I hope someone breaks your heart 

So you know what it feels to be a victim'  

In moments of hurt its very easy to wish ill on whomever wronged you.  

When Tiffany sings  

'Broken hearted, torn apart and I don’t know if I am gonna make it'  

You feel the hurt and despair.  

Tiffany has a wonderful way of letting her true emotions seep in between the words, momentary you feel her pain, anger and disappointment.

This is someone who needs to express these emotions. 

I am really learning the importance of being careful with what is vocalised; but in the same vain, the importance of being true to oneself. I am learning that in order to heal one must acknowledge  pain quite honestly. One must find a way in which to express this pain, sometimes the path to exploring and acknowledging pain is more violent but the healing always comes.

This is the kind of song one writes immediately after finding out their matey has fucked up.

Maybe my opinion on this may change in time, but if Juliet has upset you, let Juliet know she has upset you and why she has upset you. This for me has meant that I am more aware when I transfer pain from the source to a civilian. 

Tiffany, what a fucking babe. 

P.s - However I am also learning that sometimes even telling Juliet is a waste of energy, sometimes just let it go. Acknowledge Juliet is a cunt and let it go, unless you really have to tell her. But you have to decide when to tell her and when to roll your eyes.  

Zambia; Christian Nation

Zambia "the real Africa", a country defined by its 8 hour load shedding and its 7 days no water in Chilenje, by its ever expanding wealth gap between the haves and have nots, with the haves seemingly unaware or indifferent to the desperation of the have nots.

Where do desperate people turn to in a country where politicians are not in politics because they care for everyday man, but rather because they see it as a way to wealth? 

The number of churches in Zambia had me floored, for every 1km is a church or a faith based school; as if the number of churches on the ground is what characterises a Christian nation and differentiates it from more secular nations.  

Of these churches and church like organisations it's hard to not question what role the church plays in society; is it the church's duty to denounce the corruption and the ills inflicted on the Zambian people, or has the suffering of the people been ordained by God? Does a Christian nation have to live up to Christ like characteristics, of humility, compassion and honesty? 

The interesting thing is the obsession of the morals of others while neglecting one's own morals and those of the politicians, whose moral compasses or lack thereof affect daily lives much more closely than Mulenga, her ripped jeans and crop top. 

How corrupt leaders are happy to drive their lavish cars and live in their mansions - often unaffected by the lack of water and electricity, is a symptom of a lack of humanity. Lungu who had previously asked the church to 'Christianise the nation’s politics' is heading a nation free from any spirituality let alone any Christian under tones.  

At what point should we actively reject the fallacy of the 'Christian nation' and when will those in power be held accountable for the state of our beloved country?